Thursday, March 16, 2017

Entry Notes To Self...a good day

Field Notes-
Not Half Bad On A Good Day...
Coordinates 31°38′06″N 93°38′33″W

It was an unusual warm morning for February as I turned off the state highway that fronts Toledo Bend Lake. The narrow road leads me around the saw mill and up to the train crossing just as the arms stop the traffic and signals a coming train. A long train, about one hundred and ten cars long as it makes its slow journey through the small rural town of Zwolle.

Not much left of the town. Family Dollar to my right, Burger Barn and a package liquor store on the left. I can see Market Basket in my rear view mirror. A large fish statue marks the way to fishing country. It adorns the corner of the old train depot and town hall. Dream catcher is the official name
of this beauty...

Zwolle, home to about five hundred households and famous in these parts for the Tamale festival, the Mud Bog run on Good Friday along with the Timber and Forest gathering.

Now I pass through this way for their tamales. There is a blinking red light at an intersection just past the cemetery. "Take a right at the blinking red light at the cemetery, go past L & M's and we are down there on the right. You will see our sign, C & J."  Seems L & M is a close relative and a close competitor in the fine art of tamale making. Ms. Juanita claims they don't wash their hands before cooking, giving me a wink and a smile. I grin every time she tells me that story, which is frequent, since I can't pass up the question of quality made tamales at L & M. Picked up about eighteen dozen-dozen this trip. That's right, eighteen dozen would not be enough.

Ms. Juanita cooks about three hundred dozen each Wednesday and the smell coming from the small stove in the corner is worth the trip. I like the way she packs tamales. Twelve tamales wrapped in tin foil, the tin foil wrapped in print from the Sabine Index and packed in a brown paper bag. Holds in the heat and the smell of stemmed masa and pork, just enough to keep me from eating a dozen before I get back to the blinking light.

As I head out of town with my goods in tow, I pass this ole run down and vacant house of the famous Marshal Brandon. The Marshall who tamed Zwolle. A once stately southern style home, left now only with memories of its charm. Now just pass the Brandon home I saw two large bushes of azalea. Passed them up but had to turn around, go back and admire their beauty. Seems to be a little early for such full blooms, but worthy of a second glance.

I make my way past the local Mexican food shack, the Manor nursing home on the right and Killpatricks Mortuary on the left. All seemed to be doing a brisk business. What really caught my attention was the local radio station I tuned into some miles back. Moon Gifton was the host. Now Moon was posing the question to his audience about school children cleaning their own schools. He referenced some source that claimed this was the standard practice in Japan. Cost cutting and character building program. This brought one caller after another espousing "yes", great idea and how they all had such disciplined children at home doing their part. I think they finally agreed that hiring someone to clean the bathroom might be in order...seems they do not want their child to deal with the stinky parts of life.

I remember dusting the erasers at school. This chore usually took place about fifteen minutes before the final bell, so you always felt you were getting out of class early and you were the teachers favorite. Usually ended in an eraser fight with chalk marks on our face and cloths. Breathed in a lot of that chalk dust doing my part. Guess the janitor refused to dust the erasers, but the floors were always clean.  We had these air raid drills about once a month. We were afraid the Russians were going to drop a nuke on us, so we practiced hiding under our desk. Made a lot of sense at the time. Just scare the shit out of the kids. They need to be prepared for the end times. The good news...never once, while we were huddled near the floor did anyone complain about dirty floors.

After a brief commercial about a Cridder Ridder product, Moon's interest was no longer on tough love of our children, but if this Cridder Ridder product would work on snakes. Seems Moon was weed eating around his mail box over the weekend and came across a Copperhead snake. He told his wife, but made the mistake and informed her that it was at the mailbox. So now he was making the daily walk out to retrieve the mail. Many of his callers even questioned its power to ward off lawyers...never got the real answer, as my reception on this a.m. station faded and the aroma of the tamales filled my car.

Not half bad on a good day...

Sunday, February 26, 2017

The Long Dirt Road...


The Long Dirt Road

The Long Dirt Road has always been a place where I could think and reflect.  Out on the road one can connect with new sights, sounds, and people. Most importantly you are presented with the opportunity to re-connect with yourself.  As author, Doug Peacock said in his book, Walking it Off,  " I had to get out to get back in again."
So it is...The End...see you down the road. Be well, make peace with yourself and get along with it all...Doc


Photography by: Scott T Baxter

Sunday, February 19, 2017

Inside The Sane Asylum..here and there



When your “there” has become a “here”, you will simply obtain another “there” that again, looks better than “here”.

Headed out to another there that's looks better than here. I will post again and have some new pictures that I hope will be worth sharing.

Enjoy your life...in spite of it all.
Be one who understands that life is absurd at times and sometimes even meaningless , but finds
joy in it anyway...see you soon. Living in the now...Doc

Ran into this couple not long ago. I think there here?

Stopped To Ponder...being Sound Of Mind

Sound of Mind is a state of psychological stability and composure which is undisturbed by experience of or exposure to emotions, pain, or other phenomena that may cause others to lose the balance of their mind...Doc


Thursday, February 16, 2017

A Funny Thing Happened On The Way To Therapy...



"… The individual exists only in relationship to others. Every you is unique,
every I is common."


Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Entry Note To Self...



“The happiness of the bee and the dolphin is to exist. For man it is to know that and to wonder at it.”     Jacques Cousteau 

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

Field Notes...at days end

Latitude, 29° 54" 32'. Longitude, -81° 17" 12'...

Towards the Matanza's seaward turn the flow is slow, meandering. Wide tidal flat at the sea’s low tide support a spread of hungry birds. Silt brought down from inland fans the delta, between the reeds. Here crustaceans breed.

To the eyes of walkers on the white dunes, where only the lonely skylark nests among the sea oats and palmetto palms, the white sand flats must seem a bland expanse. But to Kingfisher the casts of sea fleas & crab are treasured finds. They stun their prey with single stabs.

Brown Pelicans bob in shallow water just beyond the mud. Full or not, they slowly move to their roost inland, where they will wait for the sea to ebb once more.

Sand Pipers abundant where the marsh grass grows. They all gather as the sun fades and the walkers watch nature and once again are amazed... I note these quietly in my field book at days end...Doc

Monday, February 13, 2017

Saturday, February 11, 2017

Scribbings From Inside The Sane Asylum...resilient



Let the mind roam
On the paths of nearly known
A world of promise
A world sometimes to recoil from
And bounce back, resilient
To see the beauty
And know the peace
May the world be a better place
And may you be at ease...Doc

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

The Human Conservancy...purpose






By Teal Burrell



SOMETHING to live for. This simple idea is at the heart of our greatest stories, driving our heroes on. It is the thread from which more complex philosophies are woven. As Nietzsche once wrote, “He who has a why to live for can bear almost any how”.
As human beings, it is hard for us to shake the idea that our existence must have significance beyond the here and now. Life begins and ends, yes, but surely there is a greater meaning. The trouble is, these stories we tell ourselves do nothing to soften the harsh reality: as far as the universe is concerned, we are nothing but fleeting and randomly assembled collections of energy and matter. One day, we will all be dust.
One day, but not yet. Just because life is ultimately meaningless doesn’t stop us searching for meaning while we are alive. Some seek it in religion, others in a career, money, family or pure escapism. But all who find it seem to stumble across the same thing – a thing psychologists call “purpose”.


Footnote: The notion of purpose in life may seem ill-defined and even unscientific. But a growing amount of research is pinning down what it is, and how it affects our lives. People with a greater sense of purpose live longer, sleep better and have better relationships. Purpose cuts the risk of stroke and depression. It helps people recover from addiction or manage their glucose levels if they are diabetic. If a pharmaceutical company could bottle such a treatment, it would make billions. But you can find your own, and it’s free.

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

From Inside The Sane Asylum...back on the road.

Back on the road with my two ole friends. Check back in a few days. Headed South. Always head south if you have a choice...only go North when it's absolutely necessary to do so. Especially in the winter...:)

I will leave you with a scribbling about my two ole friends from The Archives.

Be well, have reasonable thoughts and grin like you mean it...Doc

Two ole friends...

Two Ole Friends...

Some of you have seen this ole back sack and cap of mine. They have been with me for a while and they are special. They make every trip with me. They listen to all my bull shit, never say a word. Carries three pair of underwear, one pair of socks in case I have to wear socks to impress someone. Two linen shirts, a black hoody, just in case, and the basic hygiene stuff and a pair of old blue jeans, just in case I have to impress someone. A pair of sunglasses, lip balm, small binoculars and my favorite flip flops, a pair of fold up reading glasses, a note pad, a stick of sunscreen, a jar of cashews, my iPad, phone and an old first generation Nano. Carries all that for me and never complains, ..amazing. 

The cap now is a different story. About seven years old I would guess. Covered up a lot of bad crap for me...gray hair, trust me, a lot of bad hair, not just days. It can last an entire season. I liked the message that this cap gave me when I picked it up the first time from the counter. Relax...and on top of that, if your look inside there are directions for mixing The Cool Operator bar drink. Never tried it, but it's good to know its there. Just in case I have one of those blank moment emergencies and can't order my drink, I can just hand the bar keep my hat. Yep...This cap... always with me.

By the way, if you think you might need that Cool Operator recipe, let me know. Just in case you have to impress someone...after all, what are friends for?...Doc and ole friends

From The Road...The Old Barn




From The Road...The Old Barn

TK,  they call him. He lives to the north side of Bernice. I went to visit TK on my last trip into those parts. He gave me the following directions to find his house;

If you are coming from the south, turn right at the only red light in Bernice. Go over the railroad tracks and take the fork to the left. Drive until the black top turns to gravel and dirt. About two miles you will come to some dogs laying in the road. Make your way through the dogs and take the first dirt lane on the left.  As you round the curve you will see my house down in the pasture. You will find me in the old barn...

Sure enough, he was in the barn grooming a skinny ole paint horse he rescued from the grips of Horse Heaven.

I've known TK all my living days. We played in the woods, made pine top forts, explored small ponds and even double dated sisters on one occasion when we were still wet behind the ears. TK could write a dissertation on the Game Of Dominoes, simply because he claims to be the worlds foremost expert on the fine art of the game. Said the only time he loses a game is when he has to donate a game for the aid of  personal pity or use it as a long range strategy.

Tall and spry, dressed in faded Big Mac overalls with a loud welcome of, "look what the cats dragged in; see you found the dogs in the road!" He is always quick with a joke and a philosophy on just about any subject you can conjure up.

I don't even know how we got off on the subject of Dominoes. Never my intention. I only wanted a pint of his famous corn liquor. May have been the sampling from the pint Mason Jar. He tasted it first, said he wanted to make sure it was still good. Guess it was still good, he passed it over to me for my liking. Yep, it was that sampling that begged my first question. "Is it true TK, that you are the best Domino player in the world?"
"Y no," he said. "But I beat the hell out of the best that said they was."


Domino is a good game. A game of skill. I would say it is about 10 percent luck. It requires a lot of concentration, thought, and plan smart ass grit. Not like golf or chess where silence is required of spectators and competitors alike. A good player must shake off any heckling remarks. A Domino player has much more on his mind. He is working on his style of play. TK for example said he played with an Amateur Style. As he describes it; "Amateurs play not knowing their next play. Just random, not following the expected strategy. It makes my competitors try and figure out what I'm going to do next. I know, if I don't know, then they couldn't know either." See how the moonshine brings out the best in logic?

TK plays most mornings at Hoot's Barber Shop. A gathering of the towns finest men, doing their part to keep the moral and social fabric of Bernice alive. A lot of social bonding and lies being exchanged. They call it therapy and gossip . I call it a reason to get out of the house. I always thought it would be great to host a live daily radio broadcast from Hoots Barber at the time of these gatherings. Maybe sell cassette recordings of the Therapy sessions...:)

There was an old straight back chair leaning against the wall. TK introduced the chair as, the retired in honor chair, of old man Pete Alford. As the story goes, Pete sat on that chair every Friday morning for five years, in this barn to best TK's Amateur Style.

"Alford was a nice feller, a fine upstanding citizen and looked reasonably good in his clothes for a man of his age. He just didn't understand the game of Dominoes very well." TK continue to spout, "I feel it is my duty to report that I beat him sober, not so sober, whittling whist I whistled, and even left handed. Beat him four out of five times when we played...well maybe three out of four." As he looked up and grinned. "Alford retired from Dominos in 1993 the same year the chair retired."

TK is known for his Wisecracking Psychology game strategy when he wants to humiliate his opponents and destroy their confidence. Here are a few techniques he shared with me:

.laugh as if you didn't intend to, while your opponent is studying the board.
.play fast for those that ponder and hesitate.
.ponder and hesitate for those who play fast.
.after you choose your rock to be played, pause with your arm in midair, purse your lips as in thought then lay it ever so softly on the table.
.each time after you win, idly say to your opponent, "one day I sure would like to know why you played that way." This implies stupidity and gives them something to think about.
.before you begin each game, let your opponents know that 50% of your foes seek mental health counseling after playing you.
.never appear to doubt the tale of your opponents, no matter how improbable. Except for Champions, and they have no need to gild the lily. They all are liars and braggarts. Smile, nod, and politely mumur as your opponent tells of humiliating ole Joe or Bob. Just say in admiration. "Gee Pete, you must have been really good...back then...gimme twenty-five."

We even played a game or two. After getting soundly whooped, I commented to him that I wished I were a good Domino player. He quipped, "Yep, I wish you was too."

You see, the Game of Dominoes is just like life. Confidence is no problem...keeping it is...


Be well, play your doubles when you can and always take the dirt Lane past the dogs in the road. You just might enjoy an afternoon therapy session with an old friend...I got a pint of good moonshine and more...Doc





A Funny Thing Happened On The Way To Therapy

There is an Old saying..."you are only paranoid when you are wrong.
But if you stay paranoid long enough, you will be right."

Monday, January 30, 2017

Made Me Grin...Aunt Delmer



Aunt Delmer...

Now the name Delmer can be used as a boy or girls name. As strange as it seems, it has a meaning of one by the sea. Some Spanish twist to Delmar. The name reached its popularity in the 1930s and rose to number 430 on the most named list. In recent years, you don't run into many Delmers or Delmars for that matter.

I had an Aunt Delmer that passed many years ago. She was a feisty ole soul. Raised chickens for their eggs and on special occasions might sever the head of one she no longer admired. I remember her chicken and dumplings mostly. I think it was because she would ask, "how did we like the taste of Chicken Lips?" Or some other name as odd, much like Delmer.

Chickens go to roost at dusk, but that was not soon enough for Aunt Delmer. She usually ran the chickens to roost well before sunset, just before she went to milk her Jersey Cow. Her chickens always seemed a little nervous around her.

She did her wash on Thursday mornings just before daylight. She would build a fire under her black wash pot. Bring it to a boil and give the clothes a good stirring in lye soap.  Her son bought her a brand new Sears & Roebuck washer for Christmas one year. She would have no part of it and claimed it did not get the clothes as clean as a good boiling.

Aunt Delmer could not read or write and would not have known her name written if she saw it. She was Half Indian and a little crazy like her full blooded daddy. He had a peculiar behavior. Usually when no one expected it,  he would jump to his feet and pretend he was driving a team of horses.
I always watched in amusement how he cracked his imaginary whip and yelled horse orders at the top of his lungs. Well this is not about him but about Aunt Delmer. Just thought you might get a little of her flavor as she ran her chickens to roost.

There is this story about Aunt Delmer I would like to share with you:

Seems the preacher came calling on her one bright morning. Trying to save her soul is my guess.
She was a religious sort but did not frequent the pews of the church very often. That in itself required saving...:)

Well, the preacher told her that she was getting of the age that she should be thinking of the here after.
She said, "Oh, I do all the time preacher, no matter where-in the kitchen, outside in the barn or yard- I ask myself...What am I here after?"

Be well, think reasonable thoughts and for Pete's sake, let the chickens go to roost on their own...
Doc

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